Wednesday, April 28, 2010
It has been 9years since my father has past away...When he was around i use to be immature, i didn't bother much about other things, except for my own entertainment, i was living a very relax life, had two dog, dad drives, live in a semi-detached and my father had his own personal office, which was like a playground for me in the past. I often go to his workplace, New Lucky Restaurant...(somewhere in JB la)i get along with most of the stuff and i learn some obseen stuff at young age, well they treat me as a part of them so they shared a lot of things to me. I had lots of fun at that time and sadly i didn't notice about my father health conditions. He was heavily smoking and drinking, all his frens are doing it too... Until one day he lay still on the bed, he couldn't move his limb and he was mumbling. So he was hospitalized, at that time i thought it was just a normal sickness, but i didn't thought it will turn out as lung cancer. My mum told me to cherish every momment with him, but i didn't took in her words. I came home late from school most of the time and complete my hw at night and immediately go home to sleep after completing my homeworks, the time i spend with my father was extremely little. One months b4 he passed away he was sent home to spent his last momment with us, everytime i look at him i could feel his helplessness at that time, but there was nothing i could do, It was near my end of year exam and i didn't bother much. My father surprisingly manage to pull through until after my exam, and it was during my b'day celebration that he actually use all his strength just to move his left hand and feed me with the cake. On 14 November 2001 he said his last words to us, and i never get to hear his voice again... Now at this age i am no longer as rich as the past, there are many things that i cant buy and need to save up to buy. Recently I was following his footsteps, I was smoking and drinking for quite sometimes already. And on 17 April 2010 i manage to cconvince myself to quit smoking, but i am still unable to quit drinking... I will try my best not to cosumme too much alcohol, i will strive hard for my life.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:10 PM
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